I know what’s happening.
I have absolutely figured it out.
Randomly, I was reading an old school report which says “Jenny is very erratic in her work” and several other non-complimentary things, and it made complete sense to me!
All through school every teacher I had, apart from Mrs Davidson, loved me – but that’s okay because she was crazy, no really she was. She fell and hit her head on a microwave oven and had a nervous breakdown, whether those things are connected I never asked. But clearly, she had issues, therefore it’s not my fault she didn’t like me.
So anyway, it always tends to be through moments of erratic hyperactivity that I decide it’s a good time to sit down and blog. Then I would end up just doing a “that’ll do” kind of post because it made me unhappy that I couldn’t concentrate or figure out what to write. Now, I’m pretty sure you can see the flaw in my plan here. But I couldn’t. Until I got the old reports / report cards out and realised that I am actually pretty erratic.
How can you sit down to write something when you’re mind is all over the place and you are literally trying to do 100 things at once?
I’ve found that my best (I use that word loosely) ideas actually come when I’ve worn my brain out and I’ve gotten into bed. Then I end up staying awake so long, literally writing the stuff in my head, that I’m worn out and have forgotten by the next day. There’s another issue here. If I’m telling myself that I’m getting in to bed to get some good blog material then surely my brain will still be overdoing it and so it will be just the same scenario as before.
So, I’ve made a deal with my brain. I’ve told it that I’ve bought a little notebook (although, it probably already knew because it should really have been there whilst I was buying it) and that it just has to write little notes of the things I think up whilst I’m snoozing and then I’ll plan them out later when things are calm.
In other news I’m going to share some personal emails with you soon; they are the reason I should possible rethink my “never delete once typed” philosophy (the same goes with blog comments, it could get me into trouble one day). There is also something semi-exciting on the horizon in relation to some of my favourite bloggers.
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i’ve recently ok a few days ago started blogging and i hve the same thing!!i get awesome ideas for things i wanna write about but come morning or even an hour later the idea is gone but since am surgically joined to my blackberry i hve started jotting stuff in the memo section and seriously it helps…and i generally keep a little notepad in my handbag so will use tht too..jst to give my hand some other form of exercise:)
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My iPhone has that many memos on it I no longer know what any of them mean!! It’s worse than shorthand!! Writing using my hands is an issue as I’ve been typing for as long as I can remember (I’m sure I’ll be trying to hit the “delete” key in my notebook!!) but I’m going to battle through!
I have clothes ideas at night… I picture lovely outfits that I could have if only I bought certain things…. and then get annoyed that I don’t have them, and forget what they were anyway by the morning!
A note book sounds like a very good idea!
I love this comment…and the fact that this happens to you!!
When you said “writing in my head all day” I can’t stop giggling because I do that too!
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It’s just something I can’t help!! But then when I actually get the chance to write it down I’ve either forgotten it or it really doesn’t sound as good as it did! I’m so glad you feel the same!!!
i find that i get my best writing done when i’m worked up about something. that’s when i’m really passionate. however, a lot of those posts end up in draft form and when i revisit them, i realize i no longer feel that way OR I’ll tidy it up so that it makes more sense…and usually i ask myself, WHY was i feeling like that?
i love the notebook! i have a journal that i keep in my bedside table for this exact reason…sometimes i just need to get my thoughts OUT.
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Just like you and Andhari, I write in my head all the time while trying to fall asleep, lol.
I’ve been thinking about buying a little notebook, just like you did, but I don’t want to risk the chance of me losing it one day and people reading its contents. :\
Like Imerika, I too have TONS of drafts in my blog admin area which I’ve written while worked up…most of those never get published, as they don’t truly reflect what I feel/believe.
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Exciting! I keep a set of post-its next to my bed b/c it always is the case that I get the best ideas while trying to fall asleep!
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